So here is the thing with me. I've always struggled with my identity, mainly when it came to my personality and my religion. Some of you will have known me 1 month, some 1 year, or even 10 years (hey Emily, wassup girl 💖). Especially when I was in high school I cared more about letting those around me define who I am rather than figuring that out for myself. And this continued on all the way until I finished my masters. But after the events of this year, you know what I've learnt? People never have your interest at heart (well 99% of people) and will use that to stop your growth and progression. Just like a tall tree, they want to be the highest so they will do anything to stop those around them.
And thus began my journey to discovering who I am. It's been messy, there are things I for sure hate about myself but I was also a person who didn't like anything about myself. However now I've begun to appreciate things about myself. I wouldn't say I am a selfish person, but putting my needs and feelings first sometimes has proved quite successful (still don't know how I feel about it though). Once I started to learn about my faith and why I live the way I live, everything fell into place.
The one thing that is said to me the most is: "You should have more confidence in yourself." And although easier said than done, it is something I am working on. My growth has begun
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Let's talk about religion
Let's talk about religion for a moment.
First of all, yes, I'm Muslim. Hi, how do you do. And for a lot of people that's similar to an act of crime.
Let's take it back a few years. I became a volunteer at an Islamic organisation and at that time I took it as "just something to do". I'll be the first to admit that. But slowly I began to understand my religion more. The beauty and wisdom behind it and why I do what I do. They say you have an outer hijab which is what you wear, your uniform to say I am Muslim, but you also have an inner hijab which talks about having correct intentions, moral and character. And my inner hijab was like a grain of sand in a desert compared to what it is now. I am FAR from perfect, however I love my religion and what it teaches. Peace, trust in a creator, charity, love for all of humankind as your brothers and sisters, the list goes on.
However there have been some people who recently have actively taken it upon themselves to critique my religion even asking me why do I write about religion. And my answer is because I am Muslim. You write about your inspirations and your loves. And my religion defines who I am and what I do. •
And this Islamic organisation I began volunteering at almost five years ago? I now work there, surrounded by not colleagues, not friends but family, who too were volunteers as we all grew together.
So next time you choose to critique someone for their faith think about how massive of a role it plays in that persons life. And then reconsider about sending irrelevant messages and comments.
Tagging the family I work with to show my support and give thanks: @firstname.lastname@example.org@arte_de_yezarck@flopsz@aigerimich@malaikaa1986@rusticpearlscrafts