A heavy heart tonight. Guilt is a friggen bugger and although I know I am not responsible for the feelings of others... it also breaks my heart when my son says to me at bed time “mom, I was just talking to myself before you came down to say goodnight and I was saying how I really needed to try to be a good boy tomorrow so that you won’t have to be grumpy” 💔😩😭 At some point today I unconsciously made my son feel as though HE was responsible for all the small things through out the day that made me have a less than optimal day.
So I explained to him the best I knew how “Mummy has tried VERY hard to slowdown and live a less chaotic life than what I have in the past. Today felt chaotic right when I opened my eyes this morning and it stressed me out a bit BUT today also gave me an opportunity to respond instead of react to my emotions. It was also an opportunity for me to see my growth because I was able to handle those situations differently than I would have before! So it wasn’t all bad, it was actually a good day Jace, sometimes it’s hard to see that when you are in the moment though. I need you to remember that you are only responsible for your own actions and feelings, never mine or anyone else’s and that as long as you have tried your best, that’s all that matters.”
I hope I put his little mind and heart to rest... this mumma will be taking some extra care of herself tonight before I pack it in. #parenting#reparenting#itshard#healingandteaching#reparentingandparenting#borntodohardthings#heart#myboy#bigfeelings#subconcious#healersofinstagram#reiki#healing#growth#spiritualbadass#sweetdreams