Dropped shoulders fainted dizzy eyes, hesitating voice, and a constant company of alcohol or smoke....
If you inherited this image from your culture space of I am an artist working in my zone at a deeper level, and prefer simultaneously validation of this image from people who are keen to escape into insanity to look cool... It's time for you to get a shock of sanity, the depth you are seeking in this insane behaviour is the dark hole, where you are greeted with sabotage , no confidence , comforting fear of being average , and indolence.
Unpleasant scenario happend in your life , tragedy , and wounds to your heart are real. They are all emotions and we have given this gift to feel , learn , be in and acknowledge these emotions... BUT YOU CAN NOT LET THESE Emotions TO BE Your IDENTITY FOR FOREVER. LIFE IS SORTED ITS US WHO BRING SUFFERING TO IT BY BEING IDENTIFIED TO SUFFERING FOR LIFE.
Don't fall in this trap of sadddistic, alcoholic identity to cope with your problems, You are a moving force who can break these dellusional walls.
Cut the continues broadcast of suffering which is being telecast on your ears. Remember there is a difference between a dog chasing you in real life and a dog chasing you in your mind.
Start your journey , and don't stop at st backs , pick yourself up.. and you will see everything being stronger than before.
And yes .. YOU ARE WORTHY , YOU ARE ENOUGH to live a multidimensionality
Rather a sadddistic personality.
I know that the reason why you feel stuck is because every time you try to step forward, something pushes you back. Every time you make progress, another fault is found. Every time you try to move, the world shifts out from beneath you just a bit more.
If you feel stuck, it’s not because the world is holding you in place, it’s because you’re afraid to let go. It’s because the safer option has always been to hold on tightly to what’s within your comfort zone. The problem isn’t that your life isn’t changing, it’s that your life is changing and you don’t feel ready to rise to the occasion. Everything is moving forward, and leaving you behind.
So when you doubt that you are able to change your life, what you have to realize is that it is already changed. You are already different. You have already grown so much, and come so far. You have done what you are afraid of a thousand times over, you just have to get your head out of the cage you’ve built around it.
Because staying put doesn’t keep you safe, it makes you vulnerable. We only advance in life when we stop hiding out and we start taking the steps we need to.
So, to any human being who has ever doubted that they have the power to change her own life: you have never lost the ability to heal yourself, you have only simply forgotten. You’ve blocked out all that power because maybe, in the past, it drove people away, or you used it for the wrong purposes. But you’re smarter now, and wiser, and more ready. Slowly, over time, you’re going to see that life is always changing, and now, you’re ready to change with it. You’re going to see that the magic of becoming is sometimes just learning how to be.
Series Link: https://www.amazon.com/Am-Hero-My-Own-Life/dp/B07K7ZXWY2
"खुद की बर्बादी की कामना करो तो उसका नतीजा शायद जोर्डन जैसा निकले। मगर जनार्दन ने बर्बादी की कामना नहीं की थी उसने दर्द की कामना की थी जो उसके अंदर के संगीत को टटोल सके, मगर ये ख़ुद जनार्दन को भी नही पता रहा होगा की उस दर्द से जोर्डन नाम का जो इंसान जन्म लेगा वो खुद ही उसे निगल जाएगा।
यह आलम भी तो शुरू हीर की शादी के वक़्त से हुआ था, जोर्डन से हीर का यह कई दफ़ा कहना की 'क्या तुम मुझे गले लगा सकते हो?' 'और कस के' इतना सुन के जॉर्डन का हीर को गले लगा लेना और हीर का उस एक पल में सदियां काट लेना, यह चीज़ दोनो का ही रुख़ थोड़ा-थोड़ा ही सही मगर बर्बादी की ओर मोड़ रही थी।
उस पल में शायद सिर्फ हीर के ही अंदर भावनाए थी जोर्डन के लिए, मगर गले लगा के जब जोर्डन दूर हटा तो उसके हाव-भाव बता रहे थे की उसने गवा दिया है वो जो उसकी छाती के ऊपरी मंज़िल पे रहता था।
ता-उम्र जिस सफ़लता और दौलत के लिए जोर्डन ने खुद को तिनका-तिनका कर बनाया था, खुद को तपाया था।
अंतिम छड़ में जब हर एक चीज़ उसके सामने होती भी है तो जोर्डन को वह सारी चीजें निरस लगती है, बेस्वादी और बेमतलबी लगती है। लगे भी क्यूं न, उस शोहरत में हीर जो नही थी उसके साथ और जब वो नही थी तो ये सब उसके लिए बस एक बोझ था।
जोर्डन का दर्द अमूल्य था, असहनीय था, वो सारा दर्द अपने संगीत में डाल भी देता तो भी कुंटल भर दर्द रखे-रखे सड़ जाता।
फ़िल्म के अंत में जोर्डन जब तुम नादान परिंदो से गुज़ारिश करते हुए कह रहे थे की "कागा रे मोरी इतनी अरज तोसे, चुन-चुन खाइयो मांस/अरजिया रे खाइयो न तू नैना मोरे, पिया के मिलन की आस" जिसका मतलब भी यही रहता हैं की कागा आंखों को छोड़ के चाहे तो शरीर के सारे अंगों को भिन्न कर देना क्योंकि अभी भी मैंने अपने पिया से मिलने की उम्मीद खोई नही है ।
यकीन मानो जोर्डन जितने दर्द से, जितना कराह के तुम गुहार लगा रहे थे, मेरे ही साथ न जाने कितने ही लोग उस पल यही मना रहे थे कि तुम्हारी ये दुआ कुबूल हो जाए और इस दर्द से तुम्हे निजात मिल जाए।"
You can give and give.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Until there's nothing else.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Or you can give and give to yourself.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
To understand the balance.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
To understand you have enough within yourself to take from no one else. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I'm selfish with my energy,⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
My vibe is my remedy.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Preserving and reserving.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
May I reframe from wasting an inch on anyone else.
There are two things you can find these days endlessly: Information and Porn.
It is all thanks to the internet. There are thousands of porn sites and millions of pornographic videos on the web. Each day their number is growing.
While most people consume porn occasionally, some grow obsessed with it, addicted even. My Cousin Lester is a prime example.
Growing up, we were pretty close, almost like brothers. There was one thing though that I noticed even as a child. Lester was a typical nobody. He was someone that was not interesting at all and that you quickly overlooked. He was a nobody at school, a nobody at home and once he graduated, even a nobody at work.
He had always been on the short side and grew into a short, chubby man. His whole demeanor reminded you of that of a frightened animal that tried its hardest not to be noticed. It wasn’t uncommon for people to forget that Lester was around.
Now don’t get me wrong, he was not sad or depressed. His life was quite alright. He liked things the way they were. A few years after high school he started dating Lisa. She was quite similar to him. A typical wallflower and as unremarkable as Lester himself. They got married nine years ago.
The two of them might have been odd, but I could tell they were happy.
It was about a year ago that Lester was let go from his job at a literary archive. Budget cuts, his employer said. After working alone in a dusty room for more than a decade, his social skills were nonexistent. Combine that with an average high school diploma and limited qualifications. Yes, finding a new job was tough for Lester.
It was me who suggested that he should search for work online.
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REDDIT Q&A 👩❤️👨 Relationships
👩🏫 To clarify some confusion, this is a series where strangers on Reddit ask for personal advice and I chime in.
Q: "Is expecting to hear from my (32F) boyfriend (46M) everyday too much? We've been dating over a year but don't live together. He says he likes how mature our relationship is and how we can do our own thing. But sometimes, we'll go a few days without texting and it feels like he doesn't even care how my week's going. I wish he would check in on me more, even a good morning text. It doesn't have to be long, just something to show he's thinking about me. We've talked about it before but I just feel like I shouldn't have to tell him how to love me. I feel disconnected and emotionally unsupported, and don't know if wanting to hear from him everyday is reasonable or too needy."
"I just feel like I shouldn't have to tell him how to love me." <-- Here's where you're wrong.
✨Tell people how to love you.✨
Be as direct and forthcoming as possible. People aren't mind readers, and sometimes the best intentions are lost or misinterpreted. •
It's great that you've talked to him about this. Have you explicitly said all the things you told us? "I feel emotionally unsupported when I don't hear from you. I would like to hear from you everyday because it feels reassuring that you're checking in on me." Be that blunt. •
When you tell someone exactly how to love you, and they still don't make the effort, then you know it's because they've chosen not to, not because they don't know how.
Many amazing people date but find they aren't compatible in the way they love each other, and that's okay. They either break up or figure how to compromise. Those are really your only options.
You've been with this man for over a year. You should be able to talk openly about this and either:
A) fix it together
B) decide the relationship isn't working.
It's not too much to ask to feel connected in your relationship. It's the entire point. Should the result be B, know that it doesn't mean anyone is a bad person. It just means two people couldn't love in the way the other needed. 💛 conpoint