I remember walking by a small side-street while visiting Kolkata back in 2005. During that time, I was going through a difficult transition in life. I had finished my MBA in Toronto in 2003 and had spent the last two years lost. My parents had moved to Los Angeles so I lost my home-based in Ottawa. At the time, Toronto and I didn't get along - perhaps didn't help that I lived in a crappy area of town. On top of that, I had a tough time meeting new people and it seemed like everyone else was settled into their careers and family. With my negative attitude, I couldn't get my dream job at the time, and on top of that, I was having a tough time getting into the law schools of my choosing in California. I was stuck - couldn't go back, couldn't go forward.
But I kept trying and pushing. It's like I had to reach rock bottom before I could re-emerge. At the insistence of the Dean of Admissions at Pepperdine Law School, I sat for the LSAT a third time. This time around, I didn't even bother studying for it, a trick which has served me well throughout my entire academic career. Sure enough, with a relaxed and "fuck it, got nothing to lose" attitude, I ended up increasing me score sufficiently to get me into a few law schools in California. My escape from my private hell was now planned and I could see the sunrise on the horizon. I happily ended up going to an incredible school in So Cal, and never looked back!
Before I dumped everything and moved to California however, I ended up taking a trip to Kolkata with my parents. I hadn't been to India since I was only two years old. Seeing my relatives, I actually remembered every detail from my first trip. It was an awakening. Have you ever been in a heightened sense of being where everything is more vivid? India re-energized me and made me glow. I was alive again!
The point is, don't think that just because you feel you're stuck, that things have to stay that way. Keep trying and keep pushing. You just need one break and it will come.