Obviously social media won’t ever be the place where people share their actual reality. We shouldn’t expect that at this point. It’s okay to post the good things and focus on those.
But it’s still an interesting phenomenon to me. For instance, the picture above is beautiful. The view was insane and the sunset was magical. The company I enjoyed was the best.
Even still, my own thoughts raged against me — against the things that are good, against the full experience of the beauty in front of me in that moment, against the value of my life.
And maybe that’s just how it it is for me — for a time, at least. Maybe for you, too. For however long until the next step of growth.
Maybe it’s possible to be at the most beautiful places and experience the most incredible things, and yet still suffer with extreme difficulties of the mind.
And that’s okay.
The dissonance is okay.
Because sometimes the hard things do push us forward into seasons of healing and perspective and joy, and yet other times the hard things scream loud at us while we try to experience good things in front of us. While we push through, even though it scares the shit out of us.
Sounds obvious, but sometimes I need to be reminded of it — life isn’t always a black and white thing. A dark and light thing. The good and the bad aren’t always so clearly separated from each other. Sometimes they co-exist.
We don’t have to be defined by our thoughts. We get to move through them and even do the hard work of enjoying the good things while our thoughts tell us things about ourselves that aren’t true. We get to release what haunts us.
Because we are worth the fight.
We are worth the process.
We are meant to be here.
Last month I got to take wedding photos for some good friends of mine at a beautiful church in St. Michael called St. Michael! Besides watching Kyle and Grace say their wedding vows, one of my favorite parts was watching them see each other for the first time on their wedding day. I love this photo from the "First Look". Kyle is patiently and excitedly waiting for Grace to make her way over to him. So much joy and happiness!!